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January 07, 2006

Feast or Famine

Why can I not have a happy medium? Why must I either have nothing at all to do in my life, long, long, empty days stretching slowly and horribly into an empty, grey future, or so much to do that I spend all day with my brain spinning, whizzzz, whizzzz, whizzz? Why can't I have a busy, fulfilling purposeful life with time for myself to meditate and garden and do the damn laundry?

I am currently in a get up, work, eat, rehearse, eat, rehearse, eat, sleep, repeat phase. I hate that shit. I need to get to the gym, and there is just not time. I need to have some moments to just be, to unwind and slow down, and I'm not getting those either. Yes, I can see a light at the end of the tunnel,; we're 1/4 of the way through the rehearsal process for Sight Unseen, and the schedule will change next week when classes start again. Yes, my work at the International Jazz Collections is building to one wild, sleepless week and then a couple of weeks to wind down before I'm once again jobless. But in the meantime, I'm crazybusy, and I don't like to live this way. I'm not sure when I'm going to have time to run my lines to learn them because I'm always either at work or in rehearsal.

Today, for instance, I got up and had a big breakfast because I knew it was going to be crazy. Then I went to work. On a Saturday. For about an hour and 45 minutes because I didn't have time yesterday to get everything done that needed doing before I had to rush to rehearsal. And as it was I was about 15 minutes late. (Yes, I'm a good actor. I called the director to let her know when I realized it was going to happen.)

So anyway, I went to work for almost two hours this morning. Then I went to rehearsal for three hours. Now I have an hour off for lunch and then I have to go back for another three hours of rehearsal. And then I can take time to breathe for the first time in seven days. This is not how I like to live my life. I hate everything being so urgent all the time.

Posted by sally at January 7, 2006 02:19 PM

Comments

Your photos are great.

I use pics like these on my blog, which is actually all about relieving back, neck and shoulder pain.

Are yours copyrighted or could one or more be used on a content-rich site where there are Google ads, but nothing is sold by my site?

thanks dave

http://backbebetter.blogspot.com

Posted by: txdave at July 10, 2006 01:10 PM

Thanks for visiting, and thank you very much for the compliment.

As to your question about rights, as it says at the veeeery bottom of each page, should you scroll down all that way, "All content copyright Sally Eames-Harlan unless otherwise noted."

My art's not for sale, though I hope it will be someday. In the meantime, feel free to look at the pix here on Sallyacious.com, but please don't use them on your site.

Posted by: Sallyacious at July 10, 2006 04:51 PM

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