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June 07, 2008
Derailed
Got off track somehow and not sure how to get myself going again. I don't know if it was all the movie theatre popcorn I ate last night or the box of Junior Mints. (Forgetting Sarah Marshall is really funny, by the way. I laughed a lot, both big old guffaws and highly amused giggles.) Maybe it's all of the other things I've had going on that took me away from the work or the fact that my inner critic is screaming at me that I don't know what I'm doing. Or that I'm not focusing on the right things. But I feel blah, and though I have a whole bunch of possibilities, I can't seem to motivate myself to act on any of them.
To be honest, I've felt this coming on for quite some time, but haven't been able to figure out how to get around it. What to do to avoid or get through this feeling of uselessness and letdown. Even though I've tried to be gentle with myself about all of the things that have been throwing off my routine and the things I want to be doing.
Speaking of taking action, there will be no PhotoHunt photo today (Theme: Bad Hair). All of my bad hair pics are from shows, and I don't have 1) any electronic copies or 2) a scanner. It's kind of unfortunate, because I had really awesome bad hair for Woods of Weaver, where my character--Juniper--got progressively more drunk as Act II wore on. I started out looking like a saloon girl and ended up looking like a saloon girl who'd been hit by a bus, run through a wind tunnel and then fallen asleep on her face. It was World Class bad hair.
Plus, the theme seems almost prophetic, given that the hair color I got yesterday at the salon I've gone to for over four years now, turned out a really unflattering shade for the first time ever, and I am currently living with bad hair myself which I don't choose to share with any of you. Hopefully, it will get fixed on Tuesday.
Right. I'm going to see if I can't actually leave the house and wander down to the flea market that's supposed to be taking place this morning. I wonder how many vendors there are, given the weather.
11:20am I've Been Thinking: Maybe part of my issue is the weather. I don't have a studio space where I can go do really messy work like stripping paint--which is my next step--and the weather has been rainy and windy with temps in the 50's and 60's. Normally I would do the messy stuff outside. But I can't right now. It's too cold and too windy. My one outdoor workspace gets the full brunt of the wind, even though it's sheltered. How I long for a proper studio.
But. All that being said, maybe I can just work on some smaller projects for now and leave the big ones for a day when it's actually nice out. Provided, of course, that I don't have seventeen other things scheduled for that day. At least then I'd feel like I was doing something.
Posted by sally at June 7, 2008 10:37 AM
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